caught between Goodbye & I LOVE U

Today, I’m really confused about the decision that I’m about to make. I’m not sure if that decision will be the best one. I’m caught between goodbye and I love u. I don’t wanna be away from her, I love her truly with all my life but the pain is killing me knowing that she’s no longer mine. I’m going because I want to show her that I’m a responsible person and not someone who’s very dependent on her, at the same time to stay away from this feeling that I felt. However, do I really have to run away every time this thing happened? It happened so many times and now I’m doing it again. Is this the right way to solve my problem or this will just add another heartache?

I’ll be leaving few hours from now but I’m not yet decided if I’m really ready to go. I’m still waiting for the sign that I’ve been asking from God. Hopefully He will guide me to do the right thing. I do hope I won’t regret whatever decision it might be, I’m hoping for the best. Should I stay or should I go? Anybody there who could help me?

If your reading this now, I just wanna let you know how much I love u, how much you mean to me and how much I value you in my life.Will you miss me when I'm gone? I’m hoping one day you’ll be back in my arms again when the right time comes. I know you’re tired of this already, that’s why I’m giving you the time to rest and find what you really want. Time to think and a time to weigh things. I just wish we could be together again as one. Please take good care of yourself for me.